Tuesday, July 17, 2007
A Broken Scale and a Revelation
How many times must my bathroom scale break before I get it?
Evidently three times.
I've had three scales break in a relatively short amount of time.
The Holy Spirit is consistent, and I'm slow.
Last semester, He spoke clearly to me through my broken scale.
I finally listened.
I don't need to weigh myself on a consistent basis.
My weight can be an idol for me.
Don't you love putting your junk out on the internet for the world to read?
Well, here goes, because I am pretty darn sure I'm not the only one.
This is what I know...
Being in shape is a good thing.
Exercise is great! It's so beneficial, and I always feel better when I'm working out.
But exercise for the sole reason of maintaining a certain weight easily becomes an idol for me.
What is an idol? Anything that becomes more important to me than loving and glorifying God, or anything I ascribe my worth to, other than God.
(That's not Webster, that's just Jenn & Rusty Bacak.)
So, when exercising and maintaining a number on the scale becomes more important to me than my time in the Word, my duties at home, loving my husband, homeschooling my kids, or it just plain makes me GRUMPY when it's not happenning- is SIN.
I can slip into that sin easily.
Thankfully, I have a husband and friends I am accountable to who will stop me in my tracks.
I confessed this last semester to Heather, and she spoke truth to me, including that I have a daughter and she would undoubtedly inherit this sin, and SOON.
Good gracious, that made me sick.
I stopped right there in brokenness, and took my sin seriously. The thought of passing our sin down to our kids is sickening indeed.
I have felt great victory since that time, when God told me not to continually struggle with this, but to get it under control permanently.
BECAUSE AS BELIEVERS, WE CAN.
5 Those who are dominated by the sinful nature think about sinful things, but those who are controlled by the Holy Spirit think about things that please the Spirit. 6 If your sinful nature controls your mind, there is death. But if the Holy Spirit controls your mind, there is life and peace. 7 For the sinful nature is always hostile to God. It never did obey God's laws, and it never will. 8 That's why those who are still under the control of their sinful nature can never please God.
I have the Holy Spirit living in me!!! It's great news! When controlled by the HS, my mind is filled with life and peace.
I have never had an eating disorder, thank you God. I'm not above having that sort of sin in my life, I've just never gone there. If you have, please read this from the Her Hands study.
But the battle has always been in my mind, and the sinful nature, at times, was winning. According to that verse, I was not honoring God during those times! Feeling so completely disghusted with myself when I gained weight...thinking about needing to lose weight constantly...putting so much emphasis in my mind on this temporary tent I live in...putting exercise at the top of my to-do list...I've been there, been there, been there!
Exercise is good.
Self-control with food is good.
Maintaining a healthy weight is very good.
But if it comes between me and the Lord, it's VERY BAD.
I am so thankful that God is teaching me and growing me.
I am exercising still, and feeling good about it.
But the Holy Spirit is speaking truth to me about my body.
For now, I am not weighing on a consistent basis.
Not because it will definitely plunge me into sin again, but because I don't want to tempt myself to go there.
I am super grateful that I don't have to struggle with this forever, but that God gives us victory over our sin!!!
Read Romans 6-8!
God is big enough to take on our every sin! In fact, He did, He nailed it to the cross with His Son Jesus, and the victory is ours for the taking.
So girls, if you're with me, let's take these thoughts captive. Let's re-train our minds to what the Word says, and burn our idols in a giant, flaming bonfire!
Who's with me???